I Really Am In The Mood For A Pizza.

Yay... I get to work through my weekend... again.. I'm actually okay with that... it's not like I have much else to do... I could get a few things done around the house, but I'm pretty sure I will be able to use the money on the house... so until I get a budget figured out, I'm going to be pretty thrifty with it all.. and the more I can set aside, the easier it will be to work it all out. Besides, if I keep myself busy, I don't seem to find time to focus on the rut I've been in for the longest time.. until I throw it out there on this blog and remind myself... thanks me!!!  (yes, that was in my best sarcastic tone)  ...I have been looking for the best place to buy a washer and dryer.  And the one thing I'm going to splurge on... a King sized bed... I've always wanted one but never had a bedroom large enough... I'm not actually going to "splurge" on it... well.. not anytime soon, anyway. I have almost moved into monk status on that... I wonder if I can get an honorary monk title... I'm sure there's more to it than just being chaste.. I did the whole bald thing... I am pretty sure that won't get me close either.  I suppose I'll just have to be happy knowing I'm approaching monk status.
Today has been one heckuva day... my coworker was out, so I got to watch his class, my class, the advanced training IT class (which I've sorta taken on as a double duty assignment indefinitely)  ...my manager left early this morning, the IT guy for the center was out.. so two more positions I had to cover... and then the Cement instructor has to leave early this afternoon so I had to do something with his class as well... I've been busier than a one-legged man in a butt kicking contest..  I was told I need to take some "me time" ...but I don't do much of that anymore... I haven't played World of Warcraft in several weeks.. I guess this blogging is somewhat "me time" ...that and my banter at the sites.  I'm not certain how therapeutic it is.. but it's better than many things I could be doing.  I like cutting loose every once in awhile.. the opportunity isn't something that presents itself. At least not with any frequency. I almost need a "partner in crime"  ...I'm not even talking about anything sexual in nature... at least not for the moment.. I wish I could run into a like-minded individual that thought along the same lines as I do.. then I feel like I wouldn't be so alone to do everything.  It's okay though.. I can want... and wish... but when it comes down to it.. I have to adjust to what I have and what is real.  I'm still thinking about my past on occasion.. but it doesn't haunt me anymore.. I am past regrets... I'm am just acknowledging that things could have been different.. but weren't ... and there's really no one to blame.
I really am in the mood for a pizza.. 

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