It Really Isn't Your Fault.

Too many times we try to live our life like we know what's going to happen next.. like there is some sort of plan.. then we end up having to change everything just to meet the next obstacle that life throws at us.... sure.. it's great to have a loose idea of what we hope to accomplish.. but if we cannot adjust to the curves.. then we'll end up spending all of our time in a frantic rush to try to make sense of it all.  People come into and go out of our lives.. and I believe it's for a purpose.... if nothing more than.. "oh.. I was here in your life.. and now you don't have any control of my staying in it"  ...we lose people close to us.. either by them walking away... or maybe even death... it's at that point we try to second guess all of our actions with them... did I treat them the way I should have... what could I have done to make them more a part of my life... it really doesn't matter.. we're all going to have those conflicting feelings that make us think that we did something wrong... but in the end.. we have no control over those that leave us.. and if they weren't happy with who we are.. we shouldn't fret that either... unless who you appeared to that person.. was something fake... something you were trying to make them think you were.. then yes.. you were wrong... I try to live my life now not putting anything out there that isn't me... and a lot of people have walked out of my life.. but I can justify their leaving in understanding that it wasn't me to drove them out.  It was their inability for them to accept me for who I really am... and no amount of wishing things were different can change the way things were.  People have to make their own choices about how they interact... or accept other people into their lives... Don't spend all your time trying to win someone over that cannot see the real you... nor do they want to accept who you are. If you are being true to yourself... It really isn't your fault.