I mind my own business.
Expectations... we all have them.. we all expect things to go a certain way.. people to be a certain way.. I was driving the other day and a rabbit jumped out and ran into my tire... I have been hit.. or have hit several animals recently. I don't mean to do it.. but it happens.. My question is.. what makes an animal.. see this huge thing come barrelling down the highway and it decide that it wants to run full speed into it's path.. just to be plowed over. The more I think about that.. I think it's just natural.. We all get involved in relationships.. and some people stay in them.. knowing full well that more than likely we are going to be plowed over.. I wish I knew the concept behind the thought patterns of people who think that way.. I hate getting run down by fate... it's happened too many times to me... that's why I shy away from the road now. see... I am learning.. I even take steps to keep that from happening.. I removed myself from the sites I visited.. knowing full well that is a busy interstate.. and it's full of tractor-trailer rigs... I got totalled badly the last time I ventured on that highway.. it won't happen again.. but still some people are ok with it.. some people continue to traverse the open roads.. not caring what hits them... nor what they hit.. I suppose I need a tank to travel in.
Ok.. so I had my bath.. and am heading to work in a few... They expect me to be there.. my spouse expects me to come home.. I am expected to come to my room.. I will be expected to play my facebook.. and my world of warcraft.. Then the expectations will be for me to lie down.. and then sleep.. it's the same thing every day.. and I am so predictable that people have come to set their event books on my activities.. but what if I decide to go out.. I know.. WHAT? ...surely you don't mean OUT!?!?! ...I don't plan on breaking up my daily routine very much.. but it does bother me that if I break routine.. then my dad will be on my doorstep looking for me.. that has bothered me for years.. it's my largest pet peeve.. I never really have felt the freedom to do what I want... not without having to answer for it. ...anyone who has read my blog will remember my posts about my dad needing to track my every move.. and where I understand that he just cares about me.. I wish he would have some faith that I can take care of myself.. I hate being treated like a child when I'm almost 46. I feel that he needs to approve every activity that I engage in.. and what would he do if something DID happen.. it's not like he can be there instantly to save the day.. what happens.. is going to happen.. and worrying about things won't change that.... I won't be that with my kids.. I will let them know that I will be there... if and when they need me.. and once they show me they have the responsibility to be self-sufficient.. I will give them a cell phone and tell them to call me IF they want or need me.. my dad always asks when he leaves to make his trek through the woods... "do you want me to call when I get home?" ...I always answer.. no.. that's not necessary.. you have a cell phone if you have problems.. but he does it anyway.. if he didn't one time.. would I panic? nope.. I would think about it.. sure.. but there's absolutely nothing I can do to fix what may have already happened... I have faith in God.. and whatever is in store for the people around me.. is his business.. not mine.. I will come to their aid when I am asked.. or feel that I am needed.. but otherwise.. I mind my own business.
Ok.. so I had my bath.. and am heading to work in a few... They expect me to be there.. my spouse expects me to come home.. I am expected to come to my room.. I will be expected to play my facebook.. and my world of warcraft.. Then the expectations will be for me to lie down.. and then sleep.. it's the same thing every day.. and I am so predictable that people have come to set their event books on my activities.. but what if I decide to go out.. I know.. WHAT? ...surely you don't mean OUT!?!?! ...I don't plan on breaking up my daily routine very much.. but it does bother me that if I break routine.. then my dad will be on my doorstep looking for me.. that has bothered me for years.. it's my largest pet peeve.. I never really have felt the freedom to do what I want... not without having to answer for it. ...anyone who has read my blog will remember my posts about my dad needing to track my every move.. and where I understand that he just cares about me.. I wish he would have some faith that I can take care of myself.. I hate being treated like a child when I'm almost 46. I feel that he needs to approve every activity that I engage in.. and what would he do if something DID happen.. it's not like he can be there instantly to save the day.. what happens.. is going to happen.. and worrying about things won't change that.... I won't be that with my kids.. I will let them know that I will be there... if and when they need me.. and once they show me they have the responsibility to be self-sufficient.. I will give them a cell phone and tell them to call me IF they want or need me.. my dad always asks when he leaves to make his trek through the woods... "do you want me to call when I get home?" ...I always answer.. no.. that's not necessary.. you have a cell phone if you have problems.. but he does it anyway.. if he didn't one time.. would I panic? nope.. I would think about it.. sure.. but there's absolutely nothing I can do to fix what may have already happened... I have faith in God.. and whatever is in store for the people around me.. is his business.. not mine.. I will come to their aid when I am asked.. or feel that I am needed.. but otherwise.. I mind my own business.
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