Am I mentally stable?

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone...  Have you ever thought about how mentally unstable you could actually be? ...I received a phone call from the doctor's office yesterday saying that my B-12 was "extremely low" ...and they want to put me on B-12 injections for the next 6 months.  ...so I go looking up the signs and symptoms of B-12 deficiencies.. It seems that a lack of B-12 will cause issues with the brain and nervous system... so perhaps I am looking at everything from an extremely skewed perspective... I've become afraid to comment on much to my friends because I really don't know how stable I actually am...

According to WebMD:

A deficiency of vitamin B12 can lead to vitamin B12 deficiency anemia. A mild deficiency may cause only mild if any symptoms. But as the anemia worsens it may cause symptoms such as:

weakness, tired or light-headedness
rapid heartbeat and breathing
pale skin
sore tongue
easy bruising or bleeding, including bleeding gums
stomach upset and weight loss
diarrhea or constipation
If the deficiency is not corrected, it can damage the nerve cells. If this happens, vitamin B12 deficiency effects may include:

tingling or numbness in fingers and toes
difficulty walking
MOOD CHANGES OR DEPRESSION
MEMORY LOSS, DISORIENTATION, and dementia

I emphasized the last two lines for a reason.. this just might be me.. and I don't know it..

so... I have to wonder  ..I know that I've had tingling in my fingers and toes for over a year now.. but I thought it was due to my sugar levels.. and have just lived with it.  It would explain my mood changes.. and how depressing this blog is at times.. however.. I figured that what I've been through was the reason for my bleak outlook on life.  Perhaps the imbalance will bring about a renewed perspective.. and I will be a different person.. who knows... I have not cared about things for quite a while now.. and maybe it's for another reason besides the crap that is occurring in my life.  I'm still okay with feeling how I am.. but I see that changing soon.. maybe I'll have a different outlook on life.. maybe not.. but I don't look for this to change a whole lot.  I really have no idea how the b12 shots will affect me.. I'm not certain how skewed my perspective actually is.. I recommend everyone have a physical and just see what the results yield.. I can only imagine what it's like from the outside... looking in at me.. and for now.. I will try to keep my negative comments to a minimum.. even on today of all days.. when I feel at my lowest I have in some time.. because I have to keep asking myself.. Am I mentally stable?

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