Escape life for awhile.

I received an email yesterday that my yahoo account was going to be permanently erased.. it has been 120 days since I took steps to eradicate it.. I misread it.. and inadvertantly recommissioned my defunct account.. since I have it.. I decided to log on and see if anyone had messaged me on it for the last 4 months... I had 2 people that messaged me.. and that was a few months ago... that supports the theory.. "out of sight.. out of mind"  ...I never really felt very close to many people anyway... but I thought I would log on that account just to see if anyone cared enough to wonder where I've been.. again.. my theories weren't contradicted... no one really cares if you're gone for awhile.. the online world is self-sustaining.. and if you're gone awhile.. you just sort of slip into oblivion.  I suppose it's a good thing that I have no place in the lives of all the people I have touched... I don't have a problem telling people exactly what I feel ...and I don't care if I step on any toes now... I suppose at one time.. I was mindful of other's feelings.. but I really don't give much of a rat's butt anymore... I will tell it exactly like it appears to me.. and people can either like it.. or move out of my vicinity. I don't have it in me anymore to dance around in conversation.

I know that certain people read my blog.. and that's ok.. I don't care who reads it anymore.. everything I write... is how I'm feeling.. everything I say.. is for me.. it's so I can get things out.. I need the vent on what is going through my mind.. so I can keep from dwelling on it all day... it really does work. I actually mentioned to the psychologist at work.. that I have an anonymous blog where I can put my feelings out there.. and she commended me for being able to do that.. no.. I haven't sought her help.. she just occasionally sends out emails about techniques for relieving stress and anxiety.. and I responded to it.  ..but that should be it. I know my dad still wants me to come over today.. my spouse and daughter are going to be gone much of the day.. which leaves me with a quiet house. I really think I'll enjoy that. I want that anyway.. I figure it will be another Sunday where I will sit and retreat into my alternate world.. and just escape life for awhile.

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  1. AnonymousFebruary 12, 2012 at 2:12 PM

    I completely agree with you about the net...It is out of sight out of mind...and it happens to everyone...if we are fortunate enough to develop a few friendships, which I have, I know they are there for me, regardless if I am online or not...the others..I think they view us as strictly a nick, a character in a setting or play....
    Hugs! xo

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