Not In My Lifetime.

Words are powerful instruments... the ones we use.. the way we say them... we can use words to hurt.. help.. or even distance ourselves from others.... My two least favorite words are fine... and whatever. VERY passive aggressive words... When I hear these words.. I almost always go defensive.. and get somewhat irritated... People say "fine"... when they mean... "no.. it's not ok... but I'm too pissed to argue.. but you better figure it out because I'm going to stay pissed"  ...and  "whatever" ...the meaning... pretty much the same... but just slightly more active... meaning.... I'm so pissed off right now at it that I can't think of a good argument.. but just the same.. you'll hear about this later.  I heard these words in some of my past relationships... but only when someone wanted me to know that ...I was wrong but they weren't going to argue it at that point.  Now.. I'm to the point.. if you tell me "whatever".. I'm going to do something or be a certain way.. probably even if I wasn't certain about doing it before.. I have become a much more direct type of person... I may still occasionally use passive aggressive words or actions.. but that's generally because I don't care enough about you to be direct with you.  In any case... I heard "whatever" yesterday because one of my actions.. which was completely justified.. but now... because I heard it... I have put that person on the bottom of my list of people I want to spend time around.. for awhile anyway.
I had an interesting day yesterday... and while a lot of it.. I really don't feel the need to go into at the moment.. it might make for an interesting blog in the future... let's just say.. I went to 2 doctors... had bloodwork done.. and felt soooo much better afterwards... I do need to watch my triglycerides... cholesterol.. but my doc wants me to get my eating habits under control.... and exercise a bit.. if I do that.. it should get me where I want to be weightwise.. and cholesterolwise...  I started a regiment for the psoriasis. and I am very, very pleased... after just 1 treatment.. I see a remarkable improvement.  It kind of makes you wonder what all is out there that can fix things.  I will be okay with using drugs for my physical health.. but only when necessary.. but I don't believe I'll ever use them for my emotional or mental health.. unless someone else forces me to.. in which case I'll probably be in a sanitorium somewhere... I don't picture that happening.. but you never know.