I am working toward a better future.

I always have wondered ...why are things so difficult?  Do we make them that way? ...or do we inadvertantly cause conflict in other's lives?  I have noticed several things as of late that just make no sense... but still things happen for a reason.. I have to believe in that.  For a long time.. I believed that if I could go back and change things.. I wouldn't.. because that would make my situation change... and I didn't want that.. I lost that outlook last year... and felt as though I wish I could change soooo much.. but that was when I was hurting.. I don't want to be put on a pedestal... but in the same sense.. I don't want to be treated like dirt either.... I have friends that do both.... All I need is to be myself.. whoever that is.. sometimes.. I think I'm still trying to figure that out.  Our lives are a journey... we make different choices.. and take different paths.. sometimes that pulls us away from those in our lives... still we also make choices that give us clarity of thought... help us to realize where we are on our journey... There are many things.. that are out of our control.. but our choices are what make us who we are... in the eyes of others.. and in our own eyes.. There is no time better than present to make positive choices.. we all have that ability. I am content in my life.. I am back to feeling like all the choices are a cause of where I am... and I still wouldn't change a thing... that's a positive thing for me.. My life isn't the best that it could be... but there are things that make me happy... and for the most part.. I just have to put aside the mistakes of my past... overcome them.. and learn from them.  I am working toward a better future.