I will be okay.

I get to go to Nashville again today.... more student testing.. I slept extremely well last night. I am resolved to this... feeling better.. I will have a more positive outlook even if it kills me. I am running my bathwater ..and having my normal morning.. I am just doing it with more gusto.... I will try to maintain my positive attitude and think only positive thoughts.  I am trying very hard not to let the issues around me bring me down... it's more of a self-healing type thing than anything else.  I was surprised to find out that since I haven't been posting much.. someone on the site was missing me... of course it is a guy... but.. beggars can't be choosers... I will sometimes play around.. joke with certain people.. and I suppose I do it.. to lift my spirits.. I am hoping to spend some time offline this weekend.. just doing some things I want to do... Giving myself a break from posting and reading.. and reading.. and posting..  I am just hoping my positive attitude holds out.  I found out yesterday.. that my former friends are still busy talking about me.. luckily I stopped the person before I heard anything.  I don't want to know about that stuff anymore.. anyone can say whatever they want.. and it won't bother me... I know the truth about myself.. I'm not afraid of whatever rumors go forth.. I am me.. I am secure enough in myself to know that's good enough. I don't mind what rumors are being spread... or what issues others have with me.. I'm my own person.  I will continue to choose my own path.. and I figure that sooner or later.. my friends will figure out.. that I choose not to hear things... I can be healthy.. emotionally.. I just have to gather my strength.. and try... that's the most difficult part. I don't even know how it will turn out.. I am working very diligently to keep from having expectations.  I move forward.. slowly.. one step at a time.. and will try to be open to positive influences in my life.  I will be okay.

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  1. ScooberTinaApril 4, 2012 at 5:57 PM

    Yay!

    Just remember that people who are not happy with themselves have to make others look bad to feel good about themself.. ignoring those who want to bring us down is always the best thing we can do.. I know... look who's talking.. but you know how much happier I am without all those so called friends on the sites.. true friends will never stay away.. they will love you even when you are wrong.. they will stand beside you even when you are wrong.. what's really important is that you.. one of my best friends.. keeps that positive attitude. I am LOVING it! And I for one think you are onto something.. i will always be one of your strongest supporters.. anyone who dares say anything to me about you will go down.. I do not fear looking like an ass to make it happen.. love ya... Tina

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