Things are about to change.

Lately I feel like my life is falling into place.  Maybe things are happening as quickly as I'd like them, but.. they have promise.. possibilities... I am trying to embrace the outlook that life is what it seems.. that people... for the most part are who they seem to be... I have lots of setbacks...in that mode of thinking.. because of the dishonesty that I've run across... the people who play each other... I just cling to the hope.. that finally I've run into a part of my life that I will never have to worry about that.at least not by those that I allow close to me. I run into people that continue to try to harass my friends... just to get a reaction. I try to trust my friends... as much as I can... I am certain I still have a bit of cynicism and mistrust due to my past.. I am cautious in what I believe.. but for the most part... I am starting to get my optimism back. I feel that after hundreds of hours of chat and talk.. I can begin to know a person decently...  I know I can be fooled.. I have in the past.. but I think my past is filled with people who didn't know what they wanted for themselves... much less with me.. I think a lot of people haven't figured that out... what do they want out of life.. out of a relationship.. I know that I am not complete certain about my future myself.. but I'm willing to embrace the positive things... without trying to fight them anymore... May I get hurt in the future?... of course.. but life is about risks.. and chances.. if we don't take them... we never reap the reward of wonderful things happening.  We are all about wanting things.. thrust upon us... That doesn't happen.. we have to work for.. and accept the positive things... we have to learn to accept change... think about that.. if we aren't happy.. in our daily lives.. should we want change?  shouldn't we be trying to make change in ourselves.. and our situation ....The future isn't set... I don't like my living conditions.. but things are about to change.

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