Waiting for it to arrive.

I slept very soundly last night.. most sleep I've had in awhile... but it was to catch up a little bit. I am now well rested and ready to take on another day.  I have a tendency to be nosey as far as my friends are concerned.  I will ask them what is going on in their life.. and I will still post stalk them.. to see how they are.. I do feel occasionally that I might be annoying them at times.. so.. I back off on the questions.  We had someone move a mobile home next door yesterday.. and they're setting it up.. they have 2 kids... a girl age 8 and boy age 5... my youngest might now have someone to play with...  I get worried sometimes.. keeping my kids out here in the middle of nowhere.. that it might stunt their social development... I know they go to public school.. and that they interact there.. but I want them to not feel as trapped out here in the woods.. as I feel.   I still hate it here.. The next week will bring a whole slew of people from the Dept. of Labor to center where I work.. we have to try to keep them from shutting our center down... but to be perfectly honest.. it doesn't really make much difference to me if they do. I will roll with what ever happens. My dad will freak out.. if I move away on my own... but he'll just have to deal with it.  I can take care of myself... I'm almost 46... If I can't now.. I never will be able to... I don't know much of what is happening in my family... I rarely hear anything from anyone.  ...I am still stoked for my future.. I have seen glimpses of it.. and I am just waiting for it to arrive.

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