That's what I'm going to do.

Back up earlier.. I have to be at work at 6am for awhile... not too bad... but a bit annoying at times to lose that extra time in the morning.  Still.. the extra money can come in handy.  I read back over early January posts.. .and really cried.. but I can honestly say that my outlook isn't the same now as it was then. Am I this new person that is so enlightened that I don't need to be sad or skeptical?  ...of course not. I still have doubts about people.. a sort of pessimistic attitude about various things in my life.  But ... I am making choices not based on negativity. I think about my past... that much is certain... but I am not going to let it control me.  My past is just that... it's over... gone.. done with.. I can't pretend that I have made correct choices in my life... but the choices I made... were right for me... they are what has led me to this point in time.  I can make certain that I don't re-live those mistakes.. We have certain things in our lives.. that we would like to see happen.  There is no reason why we can't strive to make those things happen... We dream.... hope... wish... and though sometimes things seem impossible, there are many things we can make happen if we just put forth the effort. I still think about the adversities in the lives of some of my friends... and I my heart goes out to them.  I don't want anyone to suffer.. and I do care about my friends... We sometimes make things harder on ourselves by choosing to be negative... believe me.. I know all about that... I've had enough negativity in my world recently to last a lifetime... no matter what the circumstances, we can choose to have a positive mental outlook.. it's as simple as that.. and that's what I'm going to do.

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