A Mediocre Life.

Why do I do something that always leads to frustration... I say time and again.. I'm going to avoid conflict.. then there I go again.. doing the same exact things... thinking that this time it will be different. ...and those of you who know me.. might think I'm talking about relationships.. but no.. I learned my lesson well on that one.. I'm talking about one game in particular.. Chefville.. on Facebook.  I've had several issues.. and each time I contact them to get the "glitch" fixed.. only to join the masses in frustrating myself once again when I start having problems.. or noticing errors.  I really don't think I'm a masochist... I don't want life to be frustrating.  I'm back to playing World of Warcraft once again.. why?  ...because that game.. even though challenging at times.. has never frustrated me.. plus I get to kill things when I want to... I actually enjoy immersing myself into my  world away from reality.. getting away from life for awhile.  It's not like I live on there.. yes.. I spend more time than most people.. but I also have much less of a social life than most people.  I know people will say.. that's your choice.. and they're right.. it is my choice.  I have many issues with people in general.  Maybe I'm becoming anti-social.. but there is very little opportunity.. or even reason to be sociable.  I have my work.. and I can sleep and eat.. other than that.. I don't have to do anything else. Sometimes I just want to go to sleep and sleep for days.. but I know that'll never happen.  ...once I sleep for 5 - 6 hours.. I wake up and just lay there until I finally get up out of bed.  I think I'm getting a bit more senile also.. I have said many times that I want to grow old to be like that guy on "Up" ...maybe I will get my wish.  I believe that we are all just a bit self-centered.  Everyone seems to have a set of standards they hold others to.. but never realize when they do the same things... I suppose I am right there in the mix... not able to see my shortcomings... but noticing those of people around me...  To be perfectly honest, I am fine with being self-centered.  I've spent the majority of my life taking others into consideration and have ended up being shit on because of it.  I'm certain if anyone will think about all the sacrifices and compromises they've made.. they will realize how they are always walked on as well.. then they can't understand why they don't have the things they want... it's because somewhere along the way.. people lose themselves by becoming what they think everyone else wants them to be. I am trying to turn over a new leaf.. and live my life for me...  Tomorrow is Monday.. and it seems like I'm just repeating the same week over and over.. with just a little variation.  I know that change for the better is good.. and I'm always open to change.. I just don't believe that my life is headed in any better direction than I have currently been going.   I might see some changes.. but I plan to keep my head out of the clouds.. and my feet on the ground.  I am done with the highs and lows.. I am looking forward to a mediocre life.