Never Travel That Path Again.

I don't understand a whole lot of things in life.. but the longer I live.. the more I have to ponder.  Most things don't make a whole lot of sense.  I think that the only time what people do.. or say bothers us.. is when we actually have some deep feelings for that person... whether we want to admit it or not.  If a person is a stranger.. and they act or do things.. we couldn't give a rats ass about what is going on with them.  But if we feel the need to keep up with someone.. then we want to be ...at least.. friends.. with that person.  If the actions of that person have the ability to upset us.. then we harbor much deeper feelings for them.  I am now at a point in my life.. where I keep up with a few people.. but only because they make the effort to stay in touch.  I don't require anyone in my life anymore.  It's nice to have a few people present.. but I feel like  I am at a more independent point than I have ever been. ...and I'm not even worried about the past anymore.  Those people who have chosen a path different than mine.. are missed at times... but it's not even them that is missed.. it's the possibilities of what I thought I might have.  I am much stronger now, though.  I would prefer to live my life according to my standards... and only having to count on me.  I have come to the conclusion that people's perception of a relationship is all one-sided anyway.  I'm probably the same way... but the difference between me... and most people.. is that I am no longer afraid to lose anyone... so I can be painfully honest.  I will never allow myself to feel so deeply for someone that I won't be myself in order not to lose them... too many people compromise themselves.. and most don't even realize that they are doing that.  I have a few things to work on.. but relationships aren't one of them.. As for my part.. I will never travel that path again.