I'm A Bit Nuts.

Okay.. I'm blogging again... I have started a diet.  I am going to get back down to 170.. even if it kills me.  I know the easiest way to get there is to lop off an arm... or leg.. but that would defeat the purpose. I have never thought of weight as an issue for anyone.  ....but I want to feel as good as I did when I was that weight... I miss that.  Plus, I can tell that my health and stamina isn't as good as it once was.  I like the idea that I can start walking and walk for miles and miles at the drop of a hat.  I am slightly diabetic.. and I have managed to keep my blood sugar levels in check with only my diet.  At the moment, I am on no diabetic medications.. and I hope to keep it that way.  I think everyone should be happy with a target weight.. but if someone doesn't mind being larger.. more power to them.  The only issue... as I've said before.. is the health.. for anyone.  I am not losing weight for anyone but myself... but I'm having a bit of help from a friend of mine... it's sort of a challenge to see who can lose the weight first... I'm not worried though... I already feel a bit thinner.. and it's only been a couple of days.  My pants aren't quite as tight as they were earlier in the week.  I don't plan on weighing but once a week, but I figure to reach my goal within 45 days or so.. maybe that is losing too much too quickly, but I am certain I can find a normal diet I can live with.. once I get to where I want to be.  I figure if I get too much older.. I won't be able to train my body as well as I can now.  I really don't care what I look like.. as long as I'm presentable at work.. I'm doing okay... there will be no one in my life that I need to try to impress.  I am looking forward to the satisfaction of not splurging on my eating habits... I should be able to save a bit of money on food, also.

I played WoW for awhile tonight.. and then watched a tv show.  I didn't really think all that much of logging on to Facebook. I might log on before I go to bed.. or I might not.  I like being in control of my life.  There is so much lack of control.. every little bit that I can take account for.. makes me feel better. I will be in charge in my department tomorrow as our two supervisors are out. I don't figure anything major will happen.. but I never see anything coming that jumps out at me and mows me down.  I am sorta looking forward to the weekend.  I just want to escape for awhile in my online games and forget the rest of the world exists for awhile.  Yes.. I know that isn't always healthy.. but I don't care.  I will get back to reality when I have to.. but for awhile I'm going to check out of my boring life and forget all the issues I have.  It's almost like a drug.. escaping from reality. ...but I won't be hurting anyone else... nor physically destroying myself.  I figure my mental state can use the recoop time on occasion... after all.. like everyone else.. I'm a bit nuts.

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