It's That Simple.

I put on a medium jacket today... and it fit... I can tell a difference.. even though I've slipped a bit in the last couple of days... it doesn't matter.. I still feel much better physically. I am not worried about the size I am.. even if I have put on a few pounds over the last week.. I'm doing much better than I was.. and just need to find a regiment of eating habits that I can deal with continuously.. something I don't have to feel like I have to miss out on things I want to eat.  I suppose at times, I tend to be a glutton.  I get something that I really enjoy.. and I just want to eat as much as I can hold... Now that I realize that.. I think I can maintain a handle on it all.. I just want to be healthy... that's the whole purpose of this in the first place.

I was reading about this whole "fiscal cliff" thing... and at first I was a little concerned.. then I realized it's all politics... there never was any plan on anything not being settled.. but if a huge enough deal it made about it... then they can pretty much pass what they want to in the ...final hours.. and everyone will be so relieved.. they will be heroes... I think that they all should be ashamed for orchestrating such a pathetic number for the American public... Makes me want to move to another country at times... but every country has its faults.. So I guess I will stick it out here for just a bit longer.  ...but you heard it here... the whole thing is going according to plan.. so everyone can come out on top.. if anyone gave up their positions before now.. they would come out looking weak to their constituents.  The way it is now... they will be able to concede some of their ideas... and still be able to save face.

I usually don't talk politics.. or religion... not that I don't have viewpoints... but for the reason that I don't want anyone trying to make me see their side... when it really doesn't matter who is right or wrong... If someone wants to state their position... great.. I'll listen.. but don't try to get me to believe it.. if it makes enough sense.... or more sense than what I currently believe... I will take what is said into account... but I won't try to change anyone's belief structure.. and I don't want mine changed.

I heard a line tonight that I really agree with... "There is no such thing as love.. it's just a release of oxytocin in the blood.."  It got me to thinking.. our emotional state is usually just a condition brought about by the chemicals.. or hormones in our bodies.. That's why there are so many chemicals given to people to try to stabilize their behavior.. ...but what if I don't want my behavior stabilized??   ...what if I'm happy with all the emotions I'm kicking around inside my head??  I know that at times I can be a real dick... but that's okay.. That is me now... My whole attitude about life and people has changed completely in the last year or so.. and like it or not... I'm stronger now mentally than I've been in a long time.   I still have thoughts about the past.. but my past left me... and then I left it.. There is no reason in trying to live in something that no longer exists.  It's that simple.