We're All Hard-headed.

By reading my blog lately, you would think that I'm trying desperately to get some sort of point across to someone.... I read back through some of my articles.. and it's not that I'm trying to coerce anyone into believing anything... these are my opinions.. but it's how my mind works.  I work to get things out of my head onto print so that I can not dwell on them.. and if I were to burden my friends with this constantly... well.. I kind of think they wouldn't appreciate it ...especially after awhile.  I do think about lots of things.. My mind usually has a few thoughts going on all the time.. a sense of multitasking.  I was told recently that someone was accepting certain inevitable things.. and I am hoping that maybe I had a small role to play in that.  I learned years ago.. that most people have to be told things seven times before they actually absorb it... some people have to be told more.. sometimes we repeat things to ourselves in order to learn them.. and don't have to worry about being told the other six times... I don't know if this is true or not.. but it seems reasonable. I tend to tell myself things all the time... things I've learned.. I repeat them over and over again.  I have a difficult time learning some common sense things. I am starting to get a handle on life.. not to say that I understand it.. I am just able to cope with it now... more than ever.  I don't forget my past.. I just try not to live in it. That part of my life is gone.. it's like each second of our life... the time I'm using to put these thoughts down.. everything.. tick.. tock.. seconds are gone and can't be gotten back.  I choose the actions I take now.. at least for the most part.. but in a sense... I always have chosen my actions. We all have choices to make and that gives us our results.. the effect always comes.. whether it is what we expected or not.  I like where I am now.. not having to depend on anyone else for my happiness.  I am a selfish person... even in my relationships.. I was selfish.. I wanted to dominate someone else's time so that they would have time for only me.. and I made them the center point in my universe.  This is unhealthy... those relationships only exist in fantasy.. and then people wind up crashing and burning because they choose to believe in something that is completely fictitious.  I feel sorry for those people who have so little faith in themselves that they will compromise who they are... just in order to have some companionship.  I hope that those people learn from their mistakes at some point in time.. but for the most part.. We're all hard-headed.