All Will Be Well.

I dreamed I opened a restaurant.. I love to cook.. I just know I'm not good enough to make a lot of money at it.. it's more like a hobby.. just experimenting with food.  I've chosen my career path though.. and I love it.. even though I have to work with imbeciles sometimes.. and assholes..  but the students make it worth it.. for the most part.  I sometimes wonder what it would be like to just completely change everything in my life though.. including my occupation.  Is it just me.. or does everyone's life become stagnant after awhile?  We determine that we want something else.. but is it just phases we go through?  I thought this for a long time.. that's why I never acted on it.. but I realize now.. after years and years.. that it's not just a phase. I am concerned over a lot of things.. but I don't seem to know how to word them.. I think my biggest concern is that I won't ever be satisfied with life.. I don't really need to be happy.. but I would like to just be satisfied with where I am.. and what is going on in my life... I don't even have a clue what that's going to take yet.  I do know that open to avenues.. and am keeping my mind open to as many possible positives as I can see.. unfortunately there are very few positives in my life right now.. I need to learn patience.. I know that.. but after so many years of living unhappily.. patience is somewhat difficult. I truly don't know anything about how life is supposed to go.. but I wish I had some sort of insight..  

I thought maybe after a bit of time in the tub, I would feel better this morning, but instead I just had time to lie there and think.. my brain is now just sort of empty.. odd.. but I have nothing left to blog about that I haven't blogged many times before... now if I can just get my brain jump started in a different direction.. all will be well.

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