That's Just Bribery.

So... Dad wants me to drive 100 miles... to go to a gun show.. and when we get there.. we find out it's 50 miles further south.. so we finally arrive.. and because they want to charge $20 admission fee that Dad didn't know about .. he decides he isn't going to pay that.. just to look at some guns.. so we eat dinner and drive back home... he has more than enough money... it's not even a money issue.. "It's the principle..."  ...I really wanna drive my head into a brick wall sometimes... but that would just damage bricks and give me a headache.. I know I have a hard head.. but it's pretty evident where I get it from... I hope tomorrow is a bit better... I have some computer work to do tomorrow afternoon.. so there will be a bit of my day occupied... but the rest of it is gonna be spent here.. in front of my computer.. I so need to get a life...  

My daughter is having a friend over for the weekend... and they are having fun.... she needs that social interaction.  I hope my other daughter is able to do that at some point.. to make a few friends and do things with other people... but I'm afraid she's going to be like me.. and just hang out on her computer.. not that it's a horrible thing... but life will pass you by quickly when you do that....  I was out in Nashville today... and even after all this time.. I can still pass certain things and have memories.. things I try not to dwell on.. but they're still there.. and at this point, I think they always will be.  Memories are just that though.. and I am working on trying to focus on the present instead of false pictures in my head of the past.  

My dad left a .410 shotgun with me.. insistent that I keep it for my birthday... I'll hold it here.. but I don't see me using it. and it will be here the first time he holds it over my head that he "gave" me a present... we should never live our lives with expectations of receiving anything in return for our presents.. that's how I've always tried to live... I've given gifts.. I've helped people out... and I honestly never wanted anything in return except to see the people enjoy them.. that's all I will ever want or expect.. not something for me... the spirit of giving isn't fulfilled with expectations.. that's just bribery...

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