I Don't Feel Like There Are Many.

I don't think I'm all that hard of a person to get to know.. as I try to be friends with anyone who approaches me.. the problem doesn't exist with me being open about myself.. but in getting to know someone else enough to be comfortable with them.. or at least trusting them.. I'm very particular who I let very close to me.. in that regard, as I've been shown in my past that people aren't always the most trustworthy of creatures.  I think that most people who spend much time with me at all.. will develop an idea of who I am... very quickly.. and it's those people that will either stay in my life.. or decide they don't want any part of me.. I try to be me.. whether that's what people want or not... it's who I am.. it's just that many times people think they can change that.. or maybe they aren't inclined to believe what's going on around them.. I don't know.. but to be honest.. it's not my problem.. I wanted for so long to think that everything anyone told me was the truth.. but in retrospect.. I should learn to live my life for me.. and those that accept that.. are welcome to be a part of my life... I am the type of person that enjoys helping others.. I love being able to be counted on.. and I never just gave my trust and love freely.  When I said something.. I meant it.. and don't easily jump from one idea to another at the drop of a hat.  The same cannot be said for many people.  I don't believe some people know the difference between fantasy and reality....and they will invite anything into their lives.. just settling for what makes them happy for the moment.  It's those people who will never be happy.. or.. maybe they're superficial enough to keep themselves happy.. who knows?  All I know is the past is the past.. and the only people I have room for in my life.. are those that want to be in my future... people learn about others, the more time they spend with them.. very few people have hung in my life long enough to really know me.. but that's okay.. my life doesn't need fake people in it.. and right now as far as close people in my life.. I don't feel like there are many..

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