Becoming superficial in my life..

People still come in and go out of my life.. and I'm none the worse for wear.. I refuse to let myself be sucked into something so brief.. so fleeting.. that I wonder why I did it in the first place.. My friends.. I have.. on varying levels.. You can tell how good a friend is.. by how much they are willing to share with you.. When I find out things my friends have done... and they have not chosen to share them with me.. then I realize that friend isn't as close a friend as I thought.. So many times we place our trust in the wrong people.. and almost as often.. our trust is torn down.  With those people who are trying to get to know me.. I will be honest.. and forthcoming with them.. but will only share as much as I feel is appropriate for our level of friendship... Then as a friendship grows.. there are less and less things you keep from each other... The closest of friends.. are those that have no secrets.. I kind of think everyone has a few secrets they hang onto..  and that's ok.. if it isn't something that would affect the friendship if it were found out.. Otherwise.. that has just determined the friendship cannot handle the mistake... I have several secrets that other people have told me.. that I will NEVER share with anyone.. no matter how close of a friend they become.. because it's not anything to do with them.. nor would it affect my friendship if it were disclosed.. but the quickest way to lose me as a friend.. or at least push yourself much further away from me.. is to keep something from me... I would rather be told the truth.. and given a chance to work it out.. than find out.. once you find something out.. it's too late.. That has happened in some of my closest relationships.. and what usually causes me to push people out of my life.. Those people are welcome to interact with me.. but it will always be on a superficial level after that.. because trust and honesty are the things I try to honor..  If someone is reading this.. and thinks it applies to them.. then it probably does.. I try to never pass judgement on someone until I am certain of things.. and that allows time for people to come forth and us to deal with it.. Unfortunately.. people still find it necessary to try to hide things.. and show that it's so easy becoming superficial in my life..

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