That's all I will do.

Each one of us.. is responsible for our own actions.. no matter how much we say we were influenced.. no matter what the circumstances.. it is still a fact that we do what we do... no one else can stand responsible for it. So.. then why do we feel the need to sometimes say.. I didn't mean to do that.. Yes.. it was meant to be done, it's just that the desired outcome didn't occur. We will many times do or say things.. and immediately realize that it's something we wished we hadn't done.. or something we hadn't said.. but it's too late to erase it in most instances. It's still out there.. and those that saw or heard it.. know what truly happened.. We use phrases like ... bury the hatchet... let bygones be bygones.. but in reality... we can choose not to talk about it.. but we never forget it. Every decision we make determines how we interact with a certain person.. or certain group of people. Just because we didn't mean for it to be interpreted a certain way.. doesn't mean it won't be. My outlook on people will change with their actions.. or their viewpoints... as I get to know people more and more, I base my opinion of that person in how they interact with others.. or how they portray themselves.  If a person is a certain way when they are not around me.. then I assume that either they're lying to others.. or lying to me.. about who they are... in either case.. I don't like to think that someone will choose to be different people to match who they are with. If I require special... behavior.. in order for someone to interact.. then I would prefer that person not be a part of my life.. or if they choose to be... then I will not consider them someone I would trust.  Again.. trust comes up.. that seems to come up a lot lately. I trust that my friends will be honest with me.. I trust that I can be open with them.. I trust that they will allow me to be who I am.. (bath)

So if we are completely honest with ourselves.. we choose the path that is most comfortable for us.. for the most part.. without respect to what final outcomes may occur. It's when we do that.. that we end up fabricating truths... or lying to ourselves in order to get the desired outcome. I hope I never do that.. or if I do.. that I quickly realize it and move to correct my actions. I have many feelings at the moment about where my life might end up.. but.. I choose not to act on them until something more substantial occurs. That's all I can do... that's all I will do.