Is that so wrong?

I spent the day in Nashville yesterday... took students there to test.. I came home and was somewhat tired... but more emotionally drained than anything. I have concerned myself with too much drama recently. I like reading and posting on the forum I attend.. but other than that... I am not certain how much time I will spend there. It has become almost like poison.. causing me to be less and less trusting.. Making it much harder to believe anything.  I was accused of trying to drama.. because some things about me were being talked about... so...  if I want to address that.. it's starting drama... to me.. the person who is talking about me to other people is the one starting drama. but some people have the narrow perception to only realize what they want to... I feel sorry for people like that.. because they'll never truly get it... they live in their own little world and will say whatever they want.. thinking that it's ok... and think nothing of it. It wouldn't bother me so much except that I have probably supported this person more than any other two people combined.. and then for this person to write me off like that... well it DOES bother me... even though it shouldn't. I should have learned long ago.. not to take things too seriously from my fair-weather friends... The saddest part is.. that I then transfer that mistrust to other people who are caught in the crossfire.  Maybe they aren't guilty of anything.. but the fact remains that I am just done with that situation.

I am heading into a weekend... and I hope to be rid of all the drama in my life soon.. even if I have to stop communication for awhile with everyone that has been involved with any type of drama in my life. Is it fair.. no.. maybe not.. but the facts are still there that drama builds because I was concerned for one of my friends.. and when I addressed it.. because they were too chickenshit to, then I am the one that gets blasted because of it. I didn't accuse anyone of anything... I simply asked.. unfortunately.. asking questions is frowned upon by people.. because they want to keep everyone in the same darkness that they live in....  or share in their denial of the situation.  Well.. I'm not like that.. if something affects me.. or one of my friends.. as I've said many times in the past.. I will go to them... and ask them about it... is that so wrong?

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