At Least It's Something.

“As Venus within Eros does not really aim at pleasure, so Eros does not aim at happiness. We may think he does, but when he is brought to the test it proves otherwise... For it is the very mark of Eros that when he is in us we had rather share unhappiness with the Beloved than be happy on any other terms.” 

This quote.. by C.S. Lewis got me to thinking.. If someone truly loves another.. then it withstands the hard times.. the unhappiness.. I think that too many times.. people think love exists... and too many times, it turns out that just a little unhappiness... or doubt.. or confusion breaks it all apart.  This isn't anything substantial.  It is just what we've talked ourselves into believing is "love"  ...what my interpretation of this is that we expect all too much from relationships.. aiming for something that will keep us happy.  The fact of the matter is.. that if there is anything lasting.. then it becomes substantial in itself.. and only time will show if a relationship is able to withstand tests of doubt.. of turmoil.. or if it is built on nothing.  People will eventually show their true colors in their roles of any relationship.. friendship or otherwise.  It's much easier to be in the same boat if you're in an ocean with no other boats in sight.   Most people.. given the opportunity.. will bail for a more seaworthy vessel when it comes along. This is just something to think about.

I will be visiting my Grandmother tomorrow.. and spending a few hours with her.. I'm certain that I will see my Dad also.  I know that I get frustrated with him from time to time.. but I will always try to gather composure and let things pass.  I find that I get a little more frustrated with several things lately.  I don't know if this is because I have a lower tolerance for bullshit.. or the people around me are doing more idiotic things... I'm guessing the first part.  I like to believe in myself.. and that I'm usually right... but I have to admit that I have been wrong on more than one occasion.  I sometimes wonder if after I die.. some of the things I write will be stumbled upon and quoted for future generations.  I suppose that's part of why I blog.. so there was actual evidence that I existed.. that the experiences I go through all have some sort of meaning.. whether it be positive or negative.. at least it's something.