It Just Won't Happen.

Freezing rain this morning.. started off and tried to make it.. got 3 miles from work.. and my car wouldn't pull a hill.. so I got it out of the way and tried to make it to work with someone else.. and his car went into a ditch.. well.. so did about 9 others.. and one person even hit a house.. so it was slick as snot. I had a long day in the dorms trying to keep the students from killing themselves on the ice outside.. as everyone wanted to play in it.. ...until one guy split open the skin above his eye. I thought at first he would need stitches.. but it all worked out... thank God we didn't have to try to get him to a hospital.. at least the other students on center seemed to tone it down a bit at least.. after that.

I know I'm not on the sites.. there is a reason for that.. as I've stated many times in the past.. I have learned my lesson well.. I know that nothing is real there.. and those people that keep going back.. and letting themselves slip into the notion that things are real.. well... I can't help those people.. maybe sooner or later they'll figure it out.. all I can do is listen to my friends.. and say.. yup.. uh huh.. I figured.. and try to be somewhat supportive.. but a friend of mine said to me.. it's like going into a prison.. and being surprised when someone steals your wallet.. best analogy I've heard so far.. So people let themselves be taken off guard.. I suppose it has some merit.. I mean... I live my life in some degree of mistrust of everyone.  It's not because I think they would hurt me on purpose.. but I've been shown time and again.. that most people just don't have the sense to stay out of the kitchen when they get burned... so I am certain they could just as easily hurt me without knowing that they did.. or.. maybe they see it heading in a certain direction with someone else.. and are just too naive to stop it before it gets too far.  That's why I'll never allow myself to trust anyone completely.. because most people can't even trust themselves. That's very evident by several things I've witnessed. I can even believe that the people from my past.. never meant things to go that direction.. but once it got past a certain point.. it was just no way to deal with it.. and also deal with their relationship with me.. so I understand... not that I approve.. but I've put my money where my mouth is.. I'm not.. nor will I ever be a "site person" I will not have relationships.. no matter how easy things might appear to go.. it just won't happen.

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