Deal With It.

I was thinking about not blogging for awhile... just to see what would happen.. but then I got to thinking about that... and realized that I really don't care who looks at what is going on inside my head... and I don't want to keep it rattling around in there.  I enjoy just sitting down occasionally and spilling my guts.  I do it for me.. and not for anyone else... so I'll continue to do so.... if someone doesn't want to hear what I have to say.. they don't have to come here. This place is only for me to put down my thoughts... and for those that actually care about what's going on with me.. the rest of you probably think this akin to a soap opera.. trying to figure out how it's all going to turn out...   well...  I really don't have a clue myself.. but I will try to remain as honest as I can about who I am.. and what I am thinking.

I took the day off today.. call it a "mental health" day if you will.. it will make this a long weekend.. plus I will have Monday off...    so.. what happens?  ...they issue a notice saying that the whole program.. all centers.. will not be accepting any new students for awhile.. so that's going to screw a lot of things up.  I wonder how many students we will get down to... my guess is about 6 or 7 each... of course I've said all along they'll end up closing my center.  I told my Dad today that I will be moving to another state.. and he would just have to deal with it..  I think he understands that now.

I don't know why.. but I have a feeling... that something bad is about to happen.. even though my horoscope says something good will happen this week.  I usually check out my horoscope daily at cainer.com  ...he is usually freakily accurate. This time though.. I think he has his wires crossed. As long as it doesn't involve another person.. it might not be so bad.. but I still have no time to believe most people.. I don't know why.. but I always feel like people are hiding things from me.. which is okay.. there is no one in my life that should answer to me.. and I certainly don't have to answer to anyone else.. that might be a good thing.  I would rather not feel an obligation to place trust in someone.... because that is not happening, anyway... I just don't want people to come running to me when things turn to shit.. and they've not even given me a heads up on what is happening... I will have very little time for that.  For the most part.. people know my feelings on life and people in general.. if someone doesn't... then they haven't read much of my blog.. which is okay.. people don't need to read it if they don't really care about what is happening with me.. and those that just want entertainment.. well... if it floats your boat.. carry on.. otherwise.. deal with it.

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