Doing What I Feel Is Right.

I believe that everyone has some great qualities in them.... I also believe that everyone has some horrible qualities as well.  The problem with most people is that they choose to let those horrible qualities show through from time to time... myself included. I have never tried to tell anyone how they should live.. although when people ask my opinion.. I give it. Sometimes I might throw my opinion out there even if it is unsolicited. For the most part, I distance myself from everyone...letting only a few people fairly close to me. I don't tell those other people to go away... but it seems that's what most people feel like.  I have tried to become a literal person.  I've already said that I'm working to avoid the passive aggressiveness in my life.  If you are going to hint at something and hope that I catch on... I might ... but I refuse to acknowledge it... just as I refuse to hint at anything for anyone else.  If I mean something... then I have become the type of person to say it.  I love not being a part of the world of hidden agendas and secretive gossip.... and when that part starts rearing it's ugly head... I walk away from it...  plain and simple.  Am I avoiding reality?  I don't feel that I am... most of it isn't real.. it's what we have given power in our lives because we are too weak to say anything about it.. so we let it continue.  Again.. I am not perfect.. and I make my mistakes.. but no matter what else, I will always own up to my mistakes.  Am I going to apologize to the world? ....nope. The world turns with or without me in it. Sometimes I feel like it's the world that should apologize to me.. but that's only in moments of weakness.  I have brought about most anything in my life that I wished hadn't happened. Even now... I am responsible for the way I have treated others in my life. I cannot pretend that I am this all-knowing, all-seeing guru that has life's answers.. I'm muddling through just like everyone else... I just am a bit more outspoken about things.  I've said many things that have hurt others.. mostly because of my bluntness... sometimes it's because I slipped up and wasn't as transparent as I am now... I remember times when I got sucked into it all.. where I had secrets and hidden agendas as well.  I won't go back to that.  I won't even give it entry into my life. I choose to follow my path that I currently walk.. and if necessary I will do it alone.  I have a few people that support me in my journey.. and for them I am thankful... but when it comes down to it, we can only stand responsible for ourselves... and not for other people.. So I continue to traverse my road of destiny... heeding the things that my mind warns me about and doing what I feel is right.