I'm Happy With Me.

We all like to feel like we have control over our life.. but there are only certain things you can control.  The rest of it is something we have to sit back and accept.. or ride it out.  People aren't always going to do the best thing for you.. most everyone is out for themselves.. now. that's not saying that if in the process you don't get benefit.. that things won't happen there also..  A person cannot live their life though.. trying to please everyone.. or really trying to be accepted by anyone... and everyone. Most everyone has self-esteem issues for the most part.. and are easily manipulated by the first slick-talking person to come their way.  I have seen it time and again... and people choose not to learn from it.. and let it happen over and over. If you are going to believe in anyone.. believe in yourself.  If you can't be happy with yourself.. and who you are.. who else is going to be?  ...and if you're not happy with who you are.. change it.. it's that simple. I know that many people believe that change is a scary endeavor... and sometimes it is.. but look at it this way... you can be miserable in the way you are.. or you can do something different.. remember that insanity definition I've referred to several times?   ...it fits here.. If someone chooses not to make an effort.. and that effort has to be for the right reasons.. it needs to come from within.. any action has to be something that we want to do for ourselves.. not for someone else.. or we have now given control to another person.  Sometimes it's not a completely awful thing to give control.. but don't live your life like that. We have to be responsible for ourselves.. and our actions. I've always said.. that if you don't make an effort.. then you have no right to complain... but people do anyway.  I think that most people feel the same way.. because I feel that fundamentally.. we are all alike.. it's just that we lose ourselves somewhere along the way.. and can't see things from different viewpoints. Some people might make me nervous.. and unsure of myself.. but that's ME letting that happen.. they put on their pants one leg at a time like I do.. they have the same range of emotions.. they have the same needs... everyone does.. but then there are some that step outside the scope of "normal" behavior..  We fear change.. We dislike anything different.. If you choose not to talk with someone.. or avoid anyone for any reason.. you've rejected them.. does that make them a bad person?   of course not.. but then we are down on ourselves.. just because we get rejected.  Hell.. I've been rejected more times than I care to remember.. and it sucks.. it hurts.. but I lived.. and I'm okay.. and I learn from it.. and I go on.. I could easily give up.. and not talk to another living soul because I've been hurt so many times.. but why would I do that.. I just dust myself off and keep going.. Since I've been learning from it.. I've learned that most people can't be trusted.. which I really didn't want to believe for a long time.. but I understand that now.. and I incorporate that knowledge into my interaction with people.. but I don't avoid them altogether.. I feel like I am growing.. and I'm happy with me.