I Just Travel Cautiously.

Classes are back into swing.. or getting there anyway.  Life is still the same otherwise... not much changes with people unless they want it to change.  Most people don't want to hear the truth.  They would rather stick their head in the sand and pretend that everything is okay.  My outlook is.. if you don't know what is happening.. or has happened.. then you set yourself up to be blindsided.. and life is tough enough without the extra surprises.  I remember being this naive person... slowly evolving into what I am now.. It has been a long slow process.. and I'm certain that I will continue to grow and change my attitudes to a certain degree.. but I seriously doubt that it will be in any other direction besides where my thoughts are geared toward now.  I am done with deep emotional relationships.. so that won't be an influential factor in my life..  I know that people seem to think that I don't know a lot about their situation.. and they're right... every person.. or couple is different.  Everyone cannot be lumped into a category.. but I've found that most people cannot be trusted.  I myself have fallen into that category a couple of times.. but I will say this.. if I made a commitment to anyone.. I've never run off behind that person's back to be with someone else.. unless you count the big one.. my spouse... but I guess I justify that in my head.. as I haven't really had any kind of deep emotional relationship with her.. in several years now.. I haven't always made the right choices.. and I paid for my mistakes.. just as I will pay for any future mistakes.. luckily they will not be relationship choices.  I still maintain my life as independent from other people as I possibly can be.. I can interact with people.. but I will not ever be a major influence on anyone.. nor will they be on me.. I really don't trust people enough to let them that close... and I like it like that.

I feel that my limbo is starting to feel comfortable.  I am not actively making any changes because I see so many possibilities for changes about to occur.  As long as my life is as unstable as it is now.. I refuse to add to the chaos. I am looking for some sort of solid footing before I can start walking my own path... because as I have said before.. we all have to live with our choices... most things in our life that happen.. are due to an action.. or reaction we have made. I just travel cautiously..