That's What I Continue To Do.

I cannot pretend to know the future.. I am not sure that I really would want to know it...even if I could. Part of living life each day is letting it unfold before us.. I really don't mind being kept in the dark about most of it, but it seems saddening sometimes when I am thinking things are a certain way.. then finding out that things are completely different than I've been led to believe. I know that there are a lot of inconsistencies in this world... and I allot an amount of tolerance for those inconsistencies.. but it gets difficult to deal with things when they change so often...or so suddenly. I shouldn't be surprised.. there is really nothing set in stone.. and it's not like there are many people who want to commit to a certain train of thought. People tend to hate to be locked into a certain situation... or feel like they're trapped.. and it seems as I have done more than my share of trapping.. Even so.. I know better than to have expectations.. that's why I'm allowing myself to no longer worry about my interaction with others.  I have been shown on numerous occasions that no matter what a person might say.. or think at the moment.. it is based on the moment.. and could change at any time.  I choose to believe in me.. myself.. and what I think.. because I am always trying to be open.. I never hide things when I realize what is happening... so maybe I'm just more in touch with who I am.. than most people. Yes.. I've been hurt.. and for the most part.. I don't think it was intentional... just careless on the part of people who decided to be whimsical for the most part.. it is something I braced for.. but.. even so.. one can never truly brace for the impact you feel when things crash and burn.  I survived.. I always do.. but I'm one step closer to realizing that I shouldn't put my faith in others.. and should only count on me to be there for myself. I know in my heart what I feel.. and what I'm able to do..  That's what I continue to do.