You Have To Go On Living

It's amazing what goes on in our lives that we don't have a clue about.. and we can never know who is trustworthy... and who is not. Even removed from the sites I hear about such things that make me sad... even for those who might deserve what they get. I have always said.. if you approach me with information that directly affects someone I consider a good friend.. I am going to say something to them... however... those that I no longer.. or have never associated with... it's really none of my business what's going on there.. so I will ask those that contact me.. not to give me any more information, as I really don't care... I am okay with listening to something that directly affects the person telling me.. but as for the rest of it.. it's online.. it's going to be drama.. and anyone can say all they want to.. that they avoid the drama... but if you're online in a group.. or community of people.. you will stay immersed in drama.. There's no possibility for avoiding it. I long ago gave up on being surprised at what goes on behind people's backs.. and even now... find myself more and more cynical. I suppose it's a good thing that I am that cynical now.. I will keep to my own little bubble.. it's a small bubble.. but it's mine.. if you choose to visit me in it.. you're more than welcome... but my bubble is only big enough for me... for any length of time. I actually don't feel that I am at a bad place anymore... just a realistic one.. Don't tell me how I should feel.. don't try to "cure" me... either just accept me as I am... or go away... I can add anyone that doesn't want to be around me.. or my negativity to a long growing line of people that chose to find their own path... away from mine.. it's just as well, I suppose... I am not going anywhere.. or changing anytime in the near future... I can't help but feel that some people are going to be disappointed when I don't.. "heal" ...but there is nothing to heal from... I understand how things are.. and right now.. am probably at the clearest point in my life I've been at in quite sometime.. Strange how it takes a catastrophic event in our lives to focus our clarity.. I am becoming more peaceful with myself.. and life in general.. I am not getting hung up on any hopes for the future..  no expectations.. and it seems to be natural now... I know that in the past.. I longed for something substantial.. but slowly... over time.. I am beginning to see that a lot of life is just superficial.. and we can only hope to take one day at a time.. and live it to the best of our abilities.. that's the way we make it through... without going completely mental.. I heard something recently that I completely believe... Life is just that.. living... you have to go on living..

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