I am still human.

The start of a long weekend... maybe.. I'm almost certain they'll call me on Monday to do some driving.. if so.. I'll go in.. it's not like I have some major plans anyway.  I was invited to a New Year's Eve party tonight by a guy I work with.. but I won't go... I'm not really in a partying mood lately. I really don't know of much new in my life right now.. my best friend will probably play my game with me.. I keep getting asked by old acquaintances to join guilds.. but I really want to keep my social interaction to a minimum.. it leads to hurt feelings.. and I really don't need any more of those in my life at the moment. I have a tendency not to worry anymore about how I throw things out there.. I really don't take into account the consequences of my words.  But sometimes it's not aimed at anyone in particular.. I don't actually mean to hurt anyone.. but if my words bother you.. then deal with it.. I won't change who I am.  I'm the cynical bastard you chose to befriend.. or at least read his blog.. Not a whole lot read it anymore.. I have one faithful follower.. that reads me all the the time...   I do still occasionally get the visit from someone else checking in.. and I appreciate that.. or even sometimes... visits from friends of my past.. maybe to see if I am still talking about her.  I don't know.. I will talk about whatever happens to pop into my head.  I think that too many times we are more concerned over what people are saying about us.. than actually doing what we want to do.. saying what we want to say... I am trying a bit to be more tactful.. but if I want to say something.. I go ahead and do it... it's when I sense a person is holding back from saying things.. that I tend to pull back from that person.. it's not really lying.. but an omitting of the truth.. If I'm not a good enough friend to hear the truth.. and stay your friend.. then we really don't have a friendship. I am not saying that a person should pull out insults and innuendo and run with that.. but I am ok always with getting people's opinions... Opinions are what make each of us unique.. and opinions can always change.  I try not to take a person's words, personally. .. it's their actions that I judge... and yes.. I do judge.. as was pointed out by a close friend.... we ALL judge.. that's just human nature.. and even as little as I am feeling now ... I am still human.