Making it to the next day.

Well.. I've done it again.. I did something completely moronic... on top of staying over... I've volunteered to start going in early.. so.. this blog will be somewhat short... as I have to leave in about 5 mintues.. I've been up for 45 minutes now... and got everything ready to go out the door.. I will say this though.. if I stay this busy.. I'll either kill myself or totally occupy my time to the point I don't think about much of anything anymore... either way.. I'm probably better off... I am trying to open up my social life some.. friendwise that is.. I am working to  make other acquaintances... I won't call them friends yet.. because I only consider a friend  someone that is worthy... I am sort of picky like that in case anyone reading this hasn't guessed it.  I am sort of wondering if I am making the best choices in my life... or going through the same motions over and over... I actually created accounts at other places.. but not anything very reputable.. I am almost certain I am setting myself up for more of the same.. that's why the friends I make.. I will be completely open with.. but I will also have to excercise caution in how I deal with them.  I will continue my life.. heading into each day with the understanding that I am not really interested in the future anymore.. I just need to be concentrating on making it to the next day.

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