Things just build up.

I have things going on in my life.. that I overlook.. I actually overlook a lot. ...I'm certain that anyone reading my blog will think that I'm somewhat self-absorbed... and self-pitying.. This blog is ...as I've said before... an avenue to get out of my head.. what I want to say.. so that I can think about it.  I still miss her as much now as I ever did.. but I am strong enough now.. at least at the moment.. to know and accept that what I miss.. couldn't have existed as it did in my mind... I would never open myself up to her again.. am I hurt? ...of course.. but that doesn't mean I will harbor any ill will.   I have people in my life that support me.. even though I don't .. and won't trust anyone completely.. I appreciate the support.. for as long as they're willing to give it. I am having to go in early every day now.. so my blogs will possibly be short.. I try to get a couple of things done.. so 4:45 isn't quite getting it.. I might have to start getting up a little earlier.. I will be working late tonight... at least I'm staying occupied..
I have at least a partial weekend coming up.. we'll see how it goes.. I feel certain things building up inside of me.. but I really don't know how to express it.. when I figure that out.. I'll either blog it here.. or share with my friend.. mostly likely both.. I hope to be able to elaborate further.. but I really don't know how to even start.. nothing bad... nothing major.. just ideas in my head.. that I can't express... but sometimes things just build up..

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