crazy

It's amazing at how some people can look at things... and interpret it in so many different ways... according to someone.. I am a liar.. a cheater.. and I was the one that evidently broke off our relationship.. In a way, I'm glad that I found out now that she felt I was unfaithful to her.. that gave me the strength to tell her to go away.. what a load of hogwash.. All I ever did during our relationship was talk about how much I cared about her.. to every one of my friends.. even to those that turned out not to be friends.. I would like anyone who knows of any instances where I was "unfaithful" .. to post it publicly here.. I won't erase it.. I won't deny any truthful comments.. it has just never happened... I will admit that I have made some mistakes while she and I was together.. someone I considered a good friend.. was going to spend Christmas alone last year.. and I invited her to spend it with the family.. because she was so upset about it.. and very sad.. she didn't accept my invitation.. so now I'm a cheat because I did that too.. even though she never came.. it was way too far away.. and I halfway expected her to turn it down from the beginning.. but I felt I needed to offer.. I do like to support my friends..  My Thanksgiving visitor.. for those of you who are curious.. was one of my students.. a black student.. with no place to go for the holiday...  there are some members of my family that are very racist.. but.. luckily... he came..and said it was great...  and for some reason.. I am a bastard because I did that too..   So.. someone can say they need space.. and then have cybersex... but that's not "cheating"???  ummm... but I can talk once to someone from the other side of the world.. after answering the phone... 5 minutes.. with no sexual talk whatsoever.. and I'm the bad guy.. just because I was asleep... and still in bed.. when I answered the phone... She had called me twice during my last relationship.. I found out how much it bothered my partner at that time.. so I made it a habit to curtail my phone calls..   My friend I talk with now.. I've known for over a year and a half now.. and was talking with her on the phone before my last relationship.. and then when my relationship started.. I stopped talking to her.. out of respect.. it remained chat... and nothing sexual whatsoever.. but I get accused of cheating.. talk about the pot calling the kettle black.. only this kettle is not guilty of doing anything of the sort... I always expected some off the wall comments.. but now I'm hoping the next guy she's moved on with will be able to handle some wild accusations.. from someone that is evidently paranoid.. I didn't want to believe it when it was said.. but it seems that several people were right about her.. and up until yesterday.. I didn't believe it. I chose to always take her side.. against everything and everyone else.. I don't think that she knows what being faithful is.. she's gone 3 months.. for some "space" ..and then comes ranting at me like some jealous girlfriend.. there's no hope for us.. she said I would understand her needing space if I had truly loved her.. understand what.. that you need to not speak to me for over 2 months.. and cyber with guys in the meanwhile.. and then read about all that you were putting me through.. and do nothing.. until your feelings get hurt over some misinterpretation?   well.. it doesn't work that way.. you can't run away from me.. and have be all sexual with someone else hoping that when you get tired of playing I'll be ok...  if you think I could have trusted you not to leave me again.. that we really could make things work after being the way you have.. you really are crazy.